That is literally all I can say right now. Struggling. College is kicking my butt and I am so scared to fail one of my finals. I honestly do not know what to do.. I am scared to death.
All I can think about is him right now and that’s not helping with exams.. If he would just say something, anything.. I would be better off. Maybe..
All I want to do is go home, but I know that isn’t the greatest idea either,
I am so lost and I am struggling so badly at life right now..
True strength is keeping everything together when everyone expects you to fall apart. #standtall
And another day passes. I honestly don’t know how I can do four or more years of this, college. I love my university, but I miss home. I know being home wouldn’t help anything, no one is home. All my friends moved away and are living their lives to the fullest. Everyone picked a path and probably have no intention on looking back. Whereas, that is literally all I do, look back. I miss my small town where you wouldn’t go anywhere without knowing someone you’ve known your entire life. I miss seeing my family. It is so hard for me to realize that.. life goes on. It goes on without you, no matter what happened yesterday. Everything is seriously so different now and I would honestly do anything just to go relive some of my high school years, because college, it’s brutal sometimes. Yeah, it might be some of the best years of my life, it’s just going to take some getting used to, Even though this is my last week of my first semester.. Where has time gone? Literally. I’m going to be nineteen in two weeks..